One of those introspective nights

So tonight, I finally got word that I can make an appointment for my visa interview for Paris! I am excited because this makes it feel real. Like it will actually happen. I didn't realize how much I had been holding my feelings back about going because of things that could come along and prevent me from going. First, a cancer scare. Next, confusion regarding the visa application which made me worried I wouldn't apply in time. Other things that had me worried about going. But now I am feeling pretty confident about it. I've never had any issues with interviews, and the one job i didn't get when I interviewed was only because I was leaving for school too soon and they wanted someone more long term.

I am feeling extremely excited and grateful tonight. I have a family who fully supports me and my ridiculous ideas which don't always come to fruition. My dad especially has been extremely supportive in my plans to move to Paris for a semester. He's been helping me out a lot, financially and pretty much in every way, including reality checks that I can't travel to every single western European country while I am there. My sister has been extremely emotionally supportive through everything. I can't be more grateful for them.

I can't wait to be in Paris. Its been my dream to live in another country since I was in high school. Its been a desire since I came back from Europe the first time. I always thought it would be London, but Paris is so fitting for the person I am now. It'll be a challenge which I need. I am just so excited. I don't even have room to be nervous with how excited I am. I'm sure that'll change as January 11 rolls around, but until then I'll settle for being lost in my day dreams of living in Paris!